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11/29/10

MULAN

An army from Mongolia, the Huns, led by Shan Yu, attack China. The Chinese army must face them, and needs one man from every family to enlist. Fa Mulan's father is willing to join, but he is old and has a limp, and it is clear that he cannot fight and will die in the war. Mulan is supposed to get married, but is so clumsy that the matchmaker sends her away in shame, shouting after her that she will never find a man. Mulan fears she has dishonoured her family, but now decides that she must save her father. She secretly takes her father's armour and weapon and leaves to report in the Chinese army.
Mushu is an old family guardian or god that also has lost his honour. He has lost his job as guardian and is turned into a dragon. The family ancestors want to send someone to watch over Mulan on her journey, and Mushu takes the job in order to restore his honour. He and the lucky cricket of the family catch up with Mulan, as she joins the small army led by Li Shang. Mulan presents herself as the man Ping. All the men in the new army need a lot of training, but after a while they must face the enemy.
The army meets the Huns in the snowy mountains. Ping uses a cannon to start a snowslide that covers all the Huns. Ping is hurt by an arrow, and the doctor who examins him finds that he is a girl. Li Shang becomes angry and leaves Mulan alone in the mountains while the army travels to the Emperor's palace in the Imperial City. As Mulan and her group (the horse, the dragon and the cricket) spend the night trying to light a fire, she witnesses some of the surviving Huns climbing from the snow, and they start moving towards the Emperor's city. Mulan decides to follow them and warn her friends in the army.
In the Imperial City the army is celebrated for winning the war, and no one will listen to Mulan's warnings, since she is a girl. Suddenly Shan Yu and his surviving men step forward, kidnap the emperor and hide in the palace. Mulan asks her soldier friends, together with Li Shang, to join her and try to save the emperor. They disguise as women and manage to fool the Huns and move the emperor to safety. Mulan and her dragon also send Shan Yu into the storage of fireworks using a cannon. The emperor rewards her for saving the country.
Mulan returns home with her imperial gifts to show her family. The honour of her, her family and also of the dragon is now restored. Li Shang visits and is invited to dinner.

The Game of Volleyball
Objective of the game

The object of the game is for each team to send the ball regularly
over the net to ground it on the opponent's court, and to prevent the
ball from being grounded on its own court.

Basic Outline of play:

The ball is put into play by the right back-row player who serves the
ball by hitting it over the net to the opponent's court. A team is
allowed to hit the ball three times (in addition to the block contact)
to return it to the opponent's court. A player is not allowed to hit
the ball twice consecutively, except when attempting a block. The
rally continues until the ball touches the ground/floor, goes "out" or
a team fails to return it to the opponent's court or commits a fault.

Scoring Systems:

In volleyball, there are two primary scoring systems which may be
followed when playing:

Rally Point Scoring:

The team winning a rally scores a point (Rally Point System). When the
receiving team wins a rally, it gains a point and the right to serve,
and its players rotate one position clockwise.

The best of three or best of five games will win the match. Each game
is won by the team that first scores 25 points with a minimum
two-point advantage (no scoring cap). If there is a deciding game,
that game will be won by the team that first scores 15 points with a
minimum two-point advantage (no scoring cap).

Side out Scoring:

Only the serving team may score a point, except in the deciding game
when rally-point scoring system is used. When the receiving team wins
a rally, it gains the right to serve (but not a point) and its players
rotate one position clockwise. Rotation ensures that players play at
both the net and the back zone of the court.

A team wins a game by scoring 15 points with a two-point advantage and
wins the match by winning the best of three or five games. In the
event of a 16-16 tie, the team scoring the 17th point wins a
non-deciding game with only a one-point advantage. In a deciding game
there is no point cap.



The Basic Rules and Regulations of Volleyball:
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The Serve
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( A ) Server must serve from behind the restraining line (end
line)(refer to court diagram) until after contact.

( B ) Ball may be served underhand or overhand.

( C ) Ball must be clearly visible to opponents before serve.

( D ) Served ball must clear the net without touching the net. Failure
results in a side out.

( E ) First game serve is determined by a volley, each subsequent game
shall be served by the previous game loser.

( F ) Serve must be returned by a bump (dig) only. No setting or
attacking a serve.


Rotation
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( A ) Team will rotate each time they win the serve.

( B ) Players shall rotate in a clockwise manner.

( C ) There shall be 4-6 players on each side.


Playing the Game (Volley)
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( A ) Maximum of three hits per side.

( B ) Player may not hit the ball twice in succession ( A block is not
considered a hit ).

( C ) Ball may be played off the net except on serve.

( D ) A ball touching a boundary line is good.

( E ) A legal hit is contact with the ball by a player body above and
including the waist which does not allow the ball to visibly come to a
rest.

( F ) If two or more players contact the ball simultaneously, it is
considered one play and the players involved may not participate in
the next play.

( G ) A player must not block or attack a serve.

( H ) Switching positions will be allowed only between front line
players. (After the serve only).


Basic Violations
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( A ) Stepping on or over the line on a serve.

( B ) Failure to serve the ball over the net successfully.

( C ) Hitting the ball illegally (Carrying, Palming, Throwing, etc.).

( D ) Touches of the net with any part of the body while the ball is
in play. If the ball is driven into the net with such force that it
causes the net to contact an opposing player, no foul will be called,
and the ball shall continue to be in play.

( E ) Reaching over the net, except under these conditions:

1 - When executing a follow-through.

2 - When blocking a ball which is in the opponents court but is being
returned (the blocker must not contact the ball until after the
opponent who is attempting to return the ball makes contact). Except
to block the third play.

( F ) Reaches under the net (if it interferes with the ball or
opposing player).

( G ) Failure to serve in the correct order.

( H ) Blocks or spikes from a position which is clearly not behind the
10-foot line (refer to court diagram) while in a back row position.


The Court
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Playing Area

Both indoor and outdoor courts are 18 m x 9mi (29'6" x 59').
Indoor courts also include an attack area designated by
a line 3 m (9'10") back from the center line.

Lines on the court are 5cm (2" wide).

Net Height

Net height for men, co-ed mixed 6, & outdoor is 2.43 meters or
7'11-5/8".
Net height for women, 7'4-1/8".

The height of the net shall be 8'.

Ball
The ball weighs between 9 and 10 ounces. Ball pressure is between 4.5
and 6.0 pounds


Observation and Analysis

For an analysis of the volleyball sport, we observed a 2 minute clip
of a volleyball game between the red and green team. The 2 minute
period revolved around the service of a player from the red team (6
serves were successfully executed before the opposition went for the
kill which resulted in a side out). I observed each serve and detailed
the plays of each team (red and green) for that particular serve.

Play 1:

Red Team:

The player performed an underarm service within the obligatory service
area (refer to court diagram). She (the server) stood, in compliance
with the appropriate method of underarm service, facing the net with
the feet opposite and the hitting hand forward. The ball, prior to
serve, was held correctly at waist level. The arm was driven forward
relatively smoothly and the ball (in the other hand) was dropped just
before contact. The ball was hit with a clenched fist and successfully
made it over the net. Their was brief evidence of a follow through to
the serve; however this should be more continuous and natural.

Green Team:

The team had a W service-receiving formation. The ball was positioned
amongst the attack line, around midpoint between player 6 and 3 (refer
to player positioning diagram). There was no response from neither
back row nor front row players and none of the players came into
contact with the ball. Their was a reluctance amongst players to move
into positions for receiving. Their reluctance in movement was partly
due to the lack of communication amongst the players as to who would
go for the ball; each player relying on the other.

Conclusively, the ball was grounded and the red teamed gained an ace
point.

Play 2:

Red Team:

The underarm serve was again accurately and efficiently conducted,
travelling over the net with height and precision; however the speed
was slow which is expected from the simple ethics of the under arm
serve in comparison to serves such as the overhand and jump serve
which expel the ball at more intense speeds.

Green Team:

Similar to play 2, there was fumbling amongst the players to receive
the somewhat sky ball serve. There was lack of communication to call
the ball which again was grounded (with no contact) – this time more
deep towards back row player’s 5 and 6 – resulting in another ace
point for the reds. The sky ball serve may have lead to this fumbling
and confusion as the height of the serve often left players misjudging
distances and proportions.

Play 3:

Red Team:

The player performed a successful serve within the service area which
went over the net. Her technique of serving reached similar standards
to her previous serves which demonstrates consistency in performance.

Green Team:

Despite a brief ecstasy of fumbling, the players were more active in
their receiving; however communication still suffered which may have
caused this brief confusion. An average dig was performed by player 1
which successfully made in over the net and into the opponents half.
However this play was a failure as it gave the opponents the advantage
by offering an easy ball for the opponents to go for the kill. The
dig, known as the ‘pass’ when receiving a serve, is intended for the
transition from defence to offence for the receivers and then return
of serve. In this play the ball was set straight over, not assisted
and therefore encouraged the red team for an attack attempt.

In the dig performed by player 1, opposing the correct method, the
elbows were bent with too much arm swing when approaching the ball.
This would result in a more powerful dig which is why the ball may
have gone directly over as a free ball.

Red Team:

The easy ball should have made an attack attempt indispensable;
however this was not the case.

Player 3 (the middle blocker) attempted a solo block; though the ball
was placed high by the opponents dig and therefore chances for success
were low (blocks are generally used to block spikes and successful
when secondary and tertiary blockers assist in a multiple block).
Nevertheless the technique of the block was poor with little effort
given into the jump and its timing and only one hand used in the
attempt. The arms were also not fully extended across the net.

Succeeding the failed block, player 1 performed a proficient volley
where the fingers were spread and positioned above the head as the
ball approached. The hands were correctly close, but not touching,
forming a triangle with thumbs and pointer fingers. The elbows and
knees were bent and upon contact with the ball, arms and legs were
efficiently extended to propel the ball forward. The fingertips, not
palms, of the hand were used in the propulsion of the ball. The play
may have also been an overset.

The volley went over the net with no sets for an attacking attempt.
This would have left the red team vulnerable to a spike for the
opposition as free ball was delivered to them.

Green Team:

Due to lack of movement and correct positioning, the easy ball easy
was grounded, awarding another point to the red team.

Whole play in brief:

The play involved simple rallies, with one touch per side, with no
strategic placements and attempts to spike nor any aggressive play.

Play 4:

Red Team:

The underarm service was correctly conducted and the ball went over
the net to the opponents half.

Green Team:

The ball went deep and was dug by player 1 at the back row. The
uncontrolled dig went outside court boundaries within the green team’s
half. The player was not in an established position for correctly
performing the dig. His knees were bent correctly however is arms were
not straight upon receiving. The reason why the ball was uncontrolled
and went out was because the player may have not kept his eye on the
ball and may have propelled it from his cupped hands rather than his
forearms. The ball went out of play and point was again awarded to the
red team.

Play 5:

Red Team:

The serve was again made over the net with relatively the correct
technique and precision, demonstrating the player’s consistency.

Green Team:

The ball went shallow to around player 2, who performed an average
set, with legs and elbows bent upon receiving and extended efficiently
for a high propulsion of the ball, to player 3. Player 3 volleyed it
back to player 2 for an assist. The player, I felt, was not alert
upon receiving, where there was no attack attempt on the 3rd touch,
but instead a volley which went straight up in the air and did not
cross the net. As the ball came down, it was received by the same
player resulting in a violated 4 touches by the team and a double-hit
by player 2 (touched twice by the same player in succession). Due to
the violation, a point was awarded to the red team.

Play 6:

Red Team:

Player 1 performed an efficient service crossed the net and was within
the service area, meeting the same standards previously demonstrated.

Green Team:

Player 4 received the service and performed a good, efficient set,
with elbows and knees bent upon receiving and extension upon
propulsion of ball and formation of a triangle with thumbs and pointer
fingers as hands on top of head. This however was a violation of the
rule, unrecognised by the referee, which states ‘a serve must be
returned by a bump (dig) only. No setting or attacking a serve’.
Nevertheless the violation was missed and play continued. The set was
assisted to player 3 who dumped the ball in the opponents have. There
was no evidence of an attack attempt by player 3 (no smash) and the
ball went over with only 2 touches from the green side.

Red Team:

Front row players passed the ball, consuming all 3 sanctioned touches.
The 3rd touch however was a attempted bump, however was a carry where
the palm of the hands slapped against the ball resulting in a
violation (carrying is an illegal hit) which resulted in side out,
rotation and service of the green team.

This final play concluded the 2 minute observation of a volleyball
game.

General comments on Observation:

The plays which were observed were very simple, with no aggressive
tactics or smashes. The rallies were very simple, lasting around a
minute, with often just one touch before the ball went to the
opponents half (limited passes, no sets made amongst player). Many
plays were ace points for the red team, largely due to the lack of
communication, movement and confidence amongst players. Though some
hits displayed appropriate technique, many were also inadequately
performed.

Evaluation and Recognition of Strengths and Weaknesses

Upon the observation and analysis of the game, I recognised a strength
and weakness amongst the teams (red and green).

Strength: Volley/Set

Through analysis of the game, I observed that the red team (particular
player 1) performed proficient volleys (also known as overhand pass)
closely obeying the perfect model.

The perfect model states that the player must be in the ready
position, prior to contact with ball, with the feet a comfortable
distance apart, usually shoulder-width, and stride of each other (or
one in front, one in back). The head should be up, constantly looking
at the ball. The knees and elbows should be bent and hands are raised
about a half a foot up and away from your forehead. The hands should
turn outward so that your thumbs and pointy finger form a diamond.
Shoulders are perpendicular to the target.

[IMAGE]

Displaying stance for volley prior to contact with ball. Notice bent
arms and legs and leg stance


Once the ball has made contact with the hands, the hands should form
around the shape of the ball in such a way that only the thumb and top
two joints of the fingers make contact with the ball.

Attempt to contact the ball with the fingers and thumbs at the same
time. The palm of the hand should never touch the ball. Contact should
ideally be made at the lower back portion of the ball. The elbow
should remain out.

[IMAGE]

Stance for volley prior at contact with ball (according to perfect
model)


To propel the ball, extend the arms and legs, thrusting ones weight
towards the intended direction of the pass. Once the ball leaves the
hands, point the hands toward the intended target.

[IMAGE]

Stance after volley has been performed (follow through) and ball has
been propelled


The player performed the volley in compliance with the perfect model
stated for stances prior, at and after contact with ball. The player
hand’s, according to the perfect model, were correctly close, but not
touching, forming a triangle with thumbs and pointer fingers. The
elbows and knees were bent and upon contact with the ball, and arms
and legs were efficiently extended to propel the ball forward. The
fingertips, not palms, of the hand were correctly used in the
propulsion of the ball.

However there was a slight error in the stance after contact,
disobeying the perfect model, as the hands did not point to the
intended target.

Weakness: Dig

Through the observation and analysis of the game, I noticed the
performance of some poor digs from the green team - particularly
player 1 at the back row who performed an uncontrolled dig which went
out of the bounds of play. His technique was not in compliance with
the perfect model which was the reason why the ball went out of play
and cost the team a point.

Disobeying the perfect model, which states a player must set his/her
position before performing the dig, the player was not in an
established position as he was not strained but more casual in the dig
and was not completely stationary.

Similar to the perfect model the player’s knees were bent prior to
contact with ball.

However the perfect model states that the arms should be extended
straight out from the body so that they are parallel with your thighs.
The player, however, bent his arm upon receiving the ball.

Instead of lunging forward, the player bent his back to receive and
may not have kept focussed on the ball which is why it may have gone
out. Opposing the player stance, the perfect model states that the
back should be straight and one should be relaxed and keep his/her eye
on the ball.

Complying with the perfect model, the player’s hands were joined
together with the thumbs parallel to each other (hands cupped).

fig1

Stance of dig prior to contact (according to perfect model. Notice
bent legs, straight extended knees and the straight back.

NB: if player has to perform a dig where the ball is lower, then the
legs should lunge forward (instead of back bending down).


Upon receiving the ball the player’s leg remain bent and the arms
showed very little swing movement

The perfect model states that upon contact with the ball legs must
extend slightly, and arms move in a slight forward and upward "poking"
motion, trying to use the legs to propel the ball and not the arms.

The ball may have gone out because the player may have failed to watch
the ball come in contact with the arm, as the perfect model states
that the most important thing for an accurate, controlled dig is to
watch the ball make contact with your arms.

The player, opposing the perfect model which states that a player must
contact the ball with his forearm, contacted the ball with his cupped
hand.

Since their was minimal arm swing, there was very little evidence of a
follow thorough, violating the perfect model which states after the
hit the hands should stay cupped together and the arms follow the ball
towards the target of your dig.

fig2

Stance after dig has been performed and the ball expelled. Notice the
extension of the legs


Practices and Training to Improve Performance

The weakness I observed amongst player on the green team was digging.
Outlined below are practices (ranging from beginner to advanced
methods) which are specifically designed to improve a players dig to
match the criteria of the perfect model.

Drills for the dig:

Performed with one ball amongst two players

Beginner Practice

- One player feeds the ball to his partner, who digs it back. Change
places after 10-15 feeds. The feeder now becomes the digger and vice
versa.

Advancing Practice

- As above, but the feeder pitches the ball shorter forcing the
receiver to now come forwards to dig the ball. He then moves back to
his original position, and the drill is repeated. Similarly change
places after 10-15 feeds.

Performed with one ball per player

Beginner Practice

- The player digs the ball repeatedly overhead, keeping the ball under
control. Use knee extension (squats), not arm swing, to control the
ball.

Advancing Practice

- As above, but the height of dig is altered: high and low.

Advanced Drill: Dig 2 and Pursue

[IMAGE]

Coach hits to the left of 1 who digs and immediately after hitting to
the left of 1 the coach tosses and hits to the right of 1 who also
digs this one, just after hitting the second down ball the coach tips
a soft shot that 1 must run through and dig.

Go for a set number of repetitions (ex: 5), a successful rep. is when
they player gets both digs and a playable up on the run through.

Challenge the player as they become successful

Variation: Coach can punch a high/deep ball to simulate a "shank" on
the third ball for the digger to pursue (and get a touch)

C = Couch

This drill not only emphasises on the improvement of the technique of
the dig, but also the control of the ball. It is an advanced practice
as it replicates the situation players may face in a real game where
the ball will not go directly to you, but may fall short or come at an
angle to you where performing an accurate dig will be more difficult.

Drill for Ball control: 3 person pepper: centre digger

The green player’s control of the dig was poor, which resulted in the
ball going out of bounds in play 4.

The following simple drill is designed to improve ball control.

[IMAGE]

1 Ball

Drill:

1 sets to 2 who hits to 3.

3 dig to 2 who sets to 1 who hits to 3, 3 digs to 1

Continuous.

Monitoring Progress and Development of Different Coaching Strategies
for Improvement

As a coach it is vital to monitor the progress of individual students
and efficiently determine whether the training and practices being
performed are improving their performance.

11/28/10

Why We Need Sleep

Sleep serves an important function as we spend about one third or our
lives asleep. Theories of why we sleep can be separated into two
explanations Restorative theories, and Ecological theories.

The restoration theory claims that sleep enables the body to make
repairs after the exertions of the day. Evidence for the role of SWS
comes for the hypothesis that if SWS serves the purpose of repairing
the body then physical exercise should lead to more SWS.
Shapiro et al. (1981) studied the sleep patterns of long distance
runners. After a 57 mile race they found that the runners slept 1.5
hours longer than normal on the 2 nights following the race. In
particular, there was an especially large increase in the amount of
time devoted to SWS. However, Horne & Minard (1985) did a more
controlled lab study and found that sleep length was not affected by a
series of exhausting cognitive & physical activities. The participants
went to sleep more quickly but with no increase in sleep duration.

Further evidence for restoration theory comes from total sleep
deprivation studies. Instead of targeting either REM or SWS these
studies involve the participant not sleeping for as long as possible.
Participants were volunteers and it was also a small sample.
Therefore, the findings of the research cannot be generalised to the
wider population.

Oswald observed patients recovering from injuries to their central
nervous system. He found an increase in the quantity of REM sleep
which suggests that there was a recovery process going on in the
brain. There is also a correlation in the quantity of REM sleep and
brain weight increase in newborn babies, their rapid brain growth is
due to their long REM sleep.

The restoration perspective also states that sleeping is a way of
conserving and making important neurotransmitters. These are important
to our alertness during the day as it helps the transmission of nerve
impulses. As time passes during the day, neurotransmitter levels fall.
During REM sleep neurons synthesise new neurotransmitters for release
during the next day. However REM sleep involves neural activity,
therefore is unlikely neurotransmitters are being restored as it is
more likely it is being used up during REM sleep.

Peter Tripp stayed awake for 9 days. Three days into the experiments
he became abusive, day 5 he began to hallucinate and became paranoid.
By the end of the experiment Tripp’s body temperature had fallen and
his brain wave patterns were almost the same as a sleeping person’s
brain. After 24 hours he reported himself to feel perfectly fine.

Randy Gardner stayed awake for 11 days, unlike Tripp he didn’t display
any psychotic symptoms during his time awake and appeared normal after
the experiment.

Both Tripp and Gardner showed that going without sleep for a long time
has no serious long term damage. They also showed that it isn’t
necessarily important to recover all the sleep lost. However this
study is based on individuals with unique characteristics therefore
cannot be generalised to the rest of the population and also their
conditions wasn’t controlled. Williams et al. said that when people
are deprived of sleep for more than 72 hours they have short periods
of microsleep which is just like normal sleep. Therefore Tripp and
Gardner could have actually gotten sleep without it being noticed.

The ecological perspective is based on observation of animals in their
environment. Webb claims that the function of sleep is similar to that
of hibernation. In other words, a sleep mechanism has evolved to force
us to conserve energy at times when we would be relatively inefficient
to guarantee that we would save energy and be protected at night.
Similarly, Meddis (1975) claims that sleep behaviour depend on the
need to adapt to environmental threats and dangers. In the case of
species that depend on vision it is adaptive for them to sleep during
the hours of darkness.

Animals don’t conserve much more energy when sleeping then when
resting; sleep reduces energy rates by 5-10%. This suggests that rest
would be as adaptive as resting. The energy conservation explanation
is not sufficient enough to explain the function of sleep. The
unilateral sleeping habits of marine animals such as dolphins indicate
that sleep function can be satisfied when the animal is partially
active. This suggests that conserving energy cannot be the key
adaptive function of sleep.
Cornell Notes
What is the most effective notetaking strategy? For me the Cornell Notetaking System works the best. The Cornell Notetaking System (Record, Reduce, Recite, Reflect and Review) is a five - step notetaking process used to take notes from textbooks or lectures. Even though this strategy works best for me there are other strategies that I will share with you that I believe will also be beneficial in future classes. I will admit when it was first introduced to I couldn't stand it and would reject using it. Now as I progress in school I realize how beneficial it is.

The first notetaking strategy is Annotating which is highlighting, underlining, making marginal notes, etc. Basically just marking any and everything that you feel is important to know. Annotating has always been a strategy I’ve used and I think it is very helpful, especially for my reading class. In my reading class my teacher has us play a game of Jeopardy to study vocabulary 5 chapters at a time. Having words and information highlighted or underlined makes it a lot easier to brush up on my need to know words.

The second strategy is the Two-Column System defined as a notetaking system that shows topics, vocab. terms and/or study questions in the left column and details in the right column. This particular system will be helpful in the upcoming semester because I have to take English. I feel this system will help simplify the different rules of grammar which was something I had trouble with in high school.

The final strategy would have to be Outlining. Outlining provides a skeleton or an overview of the structure of printed materials of a complete chapter. This system is pretty much self explanatory and seems to be effective in social studies class. Outlining is an awesome alternative to time-lines. I’ve used this strategy also, haven’t used it since high school but when I did use it things seemed to make more sense. I’m not sure if I will have to use this strategy or not because I’m not sure what I will be taking in the future. This is my first semester of my freshman year so I am still sort of lost but I will make this my primary notetaking system whenever the time comes to take a social studies or history class.

Well, I’ve told you how I prepare my study materials by explaining the notetaking strategies I use. So, to conclude my view of these strategies I’d like to hope that a mixture of these few strategies will make me a great success in future college courses and I hope to learn even more helpful techniques.

11/27/10

 Poem
The first day I saw you
My eyes would not leave sight of you
I thought you where perfect
I wanted you to be mine
But I was scared to talk to you
I finally go the guts to text you
I remember that summer night so well
I remember us staying up till 4:00
That night you told me you liked me
You said you couldn’t keep your eyes off me
When you were playing basketball
You said I looked perfect
You said I was very pretty prettier then any girl you’ve seen
I believed you
I thought you where a good person
Till I started hearing stuff about you
But you told me they where all lies and don’t believe them
I didn’t believe them
I believe you Because you told me you would never lie to me
Then I started falling for you
Finally the day came and you asked me out
I said yes
Then you said I want this relationship to be longer than a month
I said it will I know it will
Then you started coming to my house
We had fun times at my house
We texted all the time
Till someone fell asleep
I started falling for you even more
I thought you were the one
Then I began to think to myself
I said I don’t just like him I love him
When you told me you loved me
Was when you didn’t even know me that well
I thought it was weird because it seemed like you were rushing it
But then I started to think maybe it’s normal
When we began dating weeks go by
We always kissed we told each other we loved each other
Then you asked me one day lets make out
I thought you were rushing it
It was way too soon and I didn’t want to yet
Then you started asking for more
You started asking sexual stuff
I told you in the beginning before we started to date
I don’t want to do that stuff
You said okay I’ll stop asking
The weeks passed
Then you asked me again
I was so mad at you after you told me you wouldn’t ask again
You said but everyone does it
I said well this girl doesn’t
Then we started to fight even more and it got worse
Then that day came you said you wanted to take a break
I was heart broken
Every night tears were rushing down my face
I couldn’t take it anymore the pain hurt too much
I didn’t know what to do
That week you broke up with me the high school dance was coming up
I was too young to go
But before the dance you told me you loved me
You just needed a break from all the fighting
Then we stopped texting because you were at the dance
Hours passed
You texted me back
We texted for a while till you fell asleep
Then you started to text me even more
Randomly you came out and said you wanted to get back together
I told you you had to show me how much you loved me
You did
Then Thursday came and you asked me out
I said yes
I was happy we were together again
A few days passed
I heard stuff not good stuff
I heard you were grinding on girls at the dance
I heard you asked a girl for a BJ
She was the one who told me you did
She also told me the first time we were dating you told her you liked her
She never knew we were dating till a few days later
She was pissed because she liked you too but you lied to her
She told me everything you said to her
I was really upset
I talked to you about it all
I was yelling at you
I said how could you do that to me the whole time
You said you didn’t
You said she was lying about everything
I said to you no you were the one lying the entire time
You hurt me really bad
I thought I could trust you
I thought you were a good person
You told me you loved me
You said you wanted to be with me forever
You said you would never hurt me
But I was wrong
I was wrong to believe you
You hurt me
My first relationship with a guy and he does this to me
I got told he was a bad guy
But I thought I could change him
But I guess I couldn’t
I know this was all my fault
I know I was stupid but I was so young
Now I know t really you, but I’m glad it’s over between us
I know I still have feelings for you but soon those feelings will leave
and I won’t think about you again
I won’t have to be sad anymore or Have to deal with the pain
Nor my friends and family would worry about me anymore
because they know I’m over you
and I have moved on to a better guy that won’t hurt me like you did.
 Poem
I feel sorry for you, I truly do
Your life is consumed with hatred and you don’t know what to do.
I can picture you laughing to yourself, thinking you got the upper hand,
when in reality, you don’t even understand.
I made my choice, because of your so called loyalty to me,
than you go around telling others about your side not letting them see.
‘Is that really fair’? I ask myself
Then I realize that I am talking about you.
So in your mind, you believe it is my punishment
well that is a sad case on your part, because days are getting few.
I can see so clearly how you cried, lied
making me believe that I would Never lose them no matter what happens with us.
I know that I have tried
and it just goes to show me not to trust.
We once had a good relationship
we both changed
I never looked at it differently until recently
because you have become so deranged.
I see this puppet master in front of me
holding all of the strings
but you’re not holding mine, ‘can you see’?
as an adult which I am, I am willing to flee.
Never thought I would say those words to you
but you made me so confused.
I was once so true to you, so true
and the loyalty I had was strong, although being misused.
I carry the traits of a Strong human being, having that love, loyalty, respect
but Only to those who earn it
respect is something you give to someone who gives it back to you, instead of neglect
and loyalty is a trait that one should have for their immediate.
So although you ‘think’ you have the upper hand
you truly Need to understand
that no matter how much you think I am this bad person
you don’t know anything about me
and that it is your choice to keep your distance.
I will always follow my mind, and heart
which tell me to stay Away from the ones who have hurt me.
if this matter keeps us apart
than I know where you stand, and that is with the ones who have hurt me.
Does it come as a shock?
it did at first, I expected more
more from you
sadly I never got anything, I just kept looking at the clock.
wondering why, why you took his side?
why you talked to him?
Questions that I know will never get answered
because you’re notorious for running to hide.
All of my past, is exactly what it is, my past
But all I ever wanted was loyalty and compassion
something that would last.
I guess I was just asking for too much from you
you could never be there for me
that’s why I had to do what I had to do
so that I could move on and be me.

11/13/10

Online Communities
Online communities? What are they? Well I’m not too sure. One thing I can tell you is that when I hear those words I usually think of chat rooms. I am sure you know that if you go online one of the things you can do is go into the chat rooms. In fact, one of the first things I did when I first go America Online was go into a chat room. I remember my friends telling me how much fun it was. I wondered what was so fun about it. f I wanted to talk to someone why wouldn’t it be more exciting to just pick up the phone and call some one or just get together with some of my friends. My friends would tell me that it was fun because you could talk to people all over the world.

One of the first things you must do before being able to join a chat room is create a screen name. This is a process I think is really fun. There are billions of names you can choose; although you quite annoying when you finally pick a name only to find out that some one else has already picked that name. I have always found screen names interesting because I think they give you an inside look to the people you can not see. If you meet some one for the first time it might appeal to you to talk to them because you like their screen name.

When I went online after picking my screen name, I then had an even harder task. Now I had to decide on which room I wanted to go into. It did not take me long to figure out that the regular chat rooms offered were not that interesting; at least not to me. I then went to the section of chat rooms that are made by people themselves. There are millions of categories. I think that there is a category out there for everyone.

One thing that I did find weird was that if you went into a certain category once you got inside there was usually no one talking about that subject. What I did figure out was that even though people might not be talking about the subject they all usually have similar interest. So usually you can get along with them because you will know that they like at least one thing you do too.

One of the chat rooms that I went in was the “Gothic” chat room. Most people in there were gothic. They all had names that had something to do or at least seemed to be gothic in a way. One question that frequently come up was people asking, “What is Goth,” and then of course the chat room regulars would start trying to answer the question and what it meant to them personally.

One of the reasons I think people go online to chat is because it gives you the chance to be anyone you want. A person who might have low self-esteem or be shy might feel comfortable enough to start talking to other people. I suppose it is kind of fun to be able to talk to people from all over the world. Also, many kids go online because when you are young most parents will not let you go out at night. Kids usually have nothing to do so they find it as an entertaining way to pass time. I did find out that a lot of the people online chatting seemed to be kids.

The language used in chat rooms varies from person to person. There are a lot of people in the gothic room that talked using big words and sound scholarly but then of course you had some people using street talk, slang and bad language. Another thing that is funny about online chatting is that people like to find ways to communicate faster so they invent smaller words like brb which stands for be right back. Also they have come up with ways of showing there emotions; lol which is the most frequently used one stands for laughing out loud. A new thing is the yellow smiley faces that can frown, smile, cry and many more cute faces .

I can see in a way why chat rooms would become addicting in a way. You might find some people over time you form a bond with. They turn into real friends except that you probably will not know what they look like. Although now a days I think that chatting has become funner because now people can meet each other and send pictures to each other. So now when you make a friend it’s not as mysterious. Some people like chatting because if you keep going back to the same room you see the same people and before you know it they become your friends. The room because a sort of “hang-out” for you.

Even though chat rooms have their pluses the only thing I think is bad about them is that people can lie to you and pretend to be something they are not. Also there have been many cases where older men try to get young children to meet with them. Our government needs to learn to move with technology and come up with new fair laws to help deal with computer crimes. Until humans learn to be more honest with each
other when chatting with each other then we can not assume that it is completely safe.
Caramel Turtle Brownies
One of my favorite desserts are caramel turtle brownies. the mix of the soft moist chocolate brownie, gooey rich caramel, and crunchy walnuts are enough to make your heart melt. I absolutely love preparing this dessert. here is the recipe from Judith Sutton's Sweet Gratitude cookbook:

Turtle Brownies: Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (177 degrees C) and place rack in the center of the oven. Butter, or spray with a non stick vegetable spray, a 9 x 13 inch (23 x  33 cm) rectangular baking pan. 
Brownies: Melt the chopped chocolate and butter in a stainless steel bowl placed over a saucepan of simmering water. Remove from heat and set aside while you make the brownie batter.
Meanwhile, in the bowl of your electric mixer (or with a hand mixer), beat the eggs and sugars until smooth. Beat in the vanilla extract and then the melted chocolate mixture. Scrape down the sides of the bowl and, on low speed, beat in the flour and salt.
Pour into the prepared pan and bake for about 20 minutes, or just until the brownies are barely firm to the touch. Remove from oven and place on a wire rack. 
Caramel: Place the unwrapped caramels and cream in a saucepan and melt, over low heat (stirring frequently), until smooth. Remove from heat and stir in the toasted pecans, making sure all the pecans are coated with caramel. Spread the caramel topping evenly over the still warm brownies and let cool to room temperature. Then cover and refrigerate brownies for about an hour or until the brownies are firm.
If making Homemade Caramel Topping: In a three quart heavy saucepan, combine the sugar, corn syrup, water, and salt. Over medium heat, stirring constantly, bring the mixture to a boil. Once it boils, stop stirring, and cook the mixture until it turns a golden caramel color, about 10 - 12 minutes. (Swirl the pan as needed so the caramel cooks evenly.) Remove from heat and carefully add the cream and vanilla (the mixture will sputter and steam so be careful). Stir in the pecans and immediately pour over the still warm brownie layer, spreading evenly. Let cool to room temperature, then cover and refrigerate brownies for about an hour or until the brownies are firm.
Ganache: Place the chopped chocolate in a heatproof bowl. Heat the cream in a small saucepan over medium heat (alternatively, heat the cream in the microwave). Bring just to a boil. Immediately pour the boiling cream over the chocolate and allow to stand for 5 minutes. Stir with a whisk until smooth. 
Remove the brownies from the refrigerator and, using a fork, drizzle the Ganache over the brownies in a zigzag pattern. Cover and refrigerate until the chocolate is set. Using a sharp knife, cut the brownies into 48 bars.
Store, covered, in the refrigerator for 7 to 10 days, or in the freezer for longer storage.
Makes about 48 brownies.
Note: To toast pecans - Bake in a 350 degree F (177 degree C) oven for 8-10 minutes or until lightly browned and fragrant.
Sources:
www.epicurious.com

Turtle Brownies:

3 ounces (90 grams) unsweetened chocolate, coarsely chopped
12 tablespoons (1 1/2 sticks) (170 grams) unsalted butter, cut into pieces
3 large eggs
1/2 cup (105 grams) light brown sugar
1 cup (200 grams) granulated white sugar
1 1/2 teaspoons pure vanilla extract
1/2 cup plus 2 tablespoons (90 grams) all-purpose flour
Caramel Topping:
40 Kraft caramels (10 ounces) (280 grams), unwrapped
1/2 cup (120 ml) heavy whipping cream
2 cups (200 grams) pecan halves, toasted
or
Homemade Caramel Topping:
1 cup plus 2 tablespoons (225 grams) granulated white sugar
1/2 cup (120 ml) light corn syrup
5 tablespoons water
1/8 teaspoon salt
1/2 cup (120 ml) heavy whipping cream
1 1/2 teaspoons pure vanilla extract
2 cups (200 grams) pecan halves, toasted
Ganache Topping:
2 ounces (55 grams) semisweet chocolate, coarsely chopped
1/4 cup (60 ml) heavy whipping cream







Never a Good Time to Say Goodbye
Breaking up with someone you love can be one of the toughest emotional struggles you’ll go through. How have you handled breakups in the past? What can you do to minimize pain for the other person and yourself?
As painful as a relationship can be as it’s ending, the experience can be a source of profound learning and personal growth. I’ve learned as the years goes by, just when you are getting comfortable, life will throw something at you which challenges that comfort. Don’t big life shifts always appear this way?
Instead of looking at these challenges with frustration, treat them as an opportunity for change in the life direction you were meant to lead and benefit from. The following are some realizations I’ve learned with regards to relationships and the ending of them.
Socially, we tend to correlate the ending of a relationship with failure. We even articulate it as such; we say, “I’ve failed in this relationship”. By framing as such, we leave a negative impression in our minds and an association with relationships in general. The ending of a relationship is not a failure, but rather the ending of a life situation in our story. We were meant to experience the relationship for its joyful moments and we were meant to learn from its challenges. New life and death are all around us. Every inhale we take is a birth and each exhale is the death of that breath; and life continues.
It’s important to clearly understand our needs in a relationship and qualities in a mate. Be absolutely honest with yourself and don’t compromising the qualities that are essential to you. What typically happens when we find a quality, which deeply matters to us, is missing in our partner, we think that they can be changed.
Truth is, we can’t make people change we can only change ourselves. Small things will magnify with time. Be conscious of these small things and be honest with yourself. Understand your needs and be true to yourself. We only have a set amount of time in this life, make it matter.
When you are ending a relationship make sure you understand why you are doing it. Sometimes the surface reason isn’t the real reason. Dig deep within yourself to find the real reason. Being surrounded by the situation can cloud your judgment. Separate yourself from the situation and spend some alone time. This will help you gain the clarity you need. Make the commitment to be honest with yourself and the other person. The truth will set you free. Be committed to that. Setup mutual time to talk to your partner as soon as possible. Some people are opposed to phone breakups. I think that face-to-face is always best, but if distance separates you, it’s best to do so as soon as possible rather than waiting.Before your meeting, get into a state of compassion for the other person. In a state of compassion, you will exude love and understanding, which you’ll need to help the other person heal.
During the meeting, focus on communicating your reasons clearly and respectfully for the sake of the other person.Your partner will get emotional and possibly very upset. They will bounce between different emotional states. Your job is to be there for them. Become the observer of the situation. Stay conscious, calm and alert. When we are emotional and feeling hurt, we can easily become irrational and say things we don’t mean. Don’t be surprised if your partner acts like a small child and says unreasonable or mean things to you. They don’t mean it. They are simply hurt and need attention from you. Don’t take anything personally. Become the observer so you don’t get attached to what’s being said and react defensively. And finally, give them space. They will be hurt no matter what, so even if they appear fine on the outside, they are hurting. What they need now is time. Check up on them a few times in the beginning to make sure they are okay and to let them know that they matter. Remind them that you are here if they need your help to heal.

11/12/10

Amigos
Making friends is a vital but not always simple task. Most may not think of it as an art but being courageous enough to open up and make new friends is truly an impressive art form that not very many can do. Ultimatley making a new friend for yourself is something you just have to be able to do.You have to be able to go out on your own limb and make the descison to accept a new friendship. But there are a few pointers you can follow to make it a bit easier. 
Most importantly be yourself, or be true to yourself. A true friend will like you for who you are, not who you pretend to be. Next up spend more time around people. If you want to make friends, you first need to put yourself out there somehow in order to meet people. Friends seldom come knocking on your door while you sit at home playing computer games. Then try to join an organization with people who have common interests. You don't necessarily have to have a lot of common interests with people in order to make friends with them. In fact, some of the most rewarding friendships are between two people who don't have much in common at all, but if you like a specific topic, try searching for just a location. It's a great way to meet new local people! Social networking sites such as Face Book, twitter and My Space are great way to meet new people and learn more about the people you meet.
After you have done this you might want to try talking to people You can join a club, go to school, or go to church but you still won't make friends if you don't actually talk to people. By the same token, you don't have to be involved with an organization to be social, and any time you talk to someone, you have a chance at making a lasting friend. You can talk to anybody: the clerk at the video store, the person sitting next to you on the bus or the person in front of you on the lunch line. Don't be too picky. Most conversations will be a dead-end of sorts--when you may never talk to that person again, or you just remain acquaintances--but once in a while you'll actually make a friend. Make sure to make eye contact and smile. If you have an unfriendly countenance, people are less likely to be receptive to your friendship. Also remember to be approchable by not squinting (get some glasses), looking bored, frowning or appearing blankly deadpan, folding your arms or hanging out in a corner; such habits may make you look troubled or disinterested.
 Once you have gotten to meet someone who you are hitting it off with initiate a get-together. You can chat your heart out but it won't get you a friend if you don't open up the opportunity for another conversation or meeting. This is especially important if you meet someone who you aren't otherwise likely to meet again. Seize the day!
In making friends I must stress the most important rule is be yourself. From the initial meeting make sure you are being 100% you. There is nothing worst than building a good friendship on lies. Sooner or later these lies will surface and you could end up jeopardizing a beautiful friendship. All that can be avoided if you just be your honest to God self.
Impulse Buying
An impulse purchase or impulse buy is an unplanned decision to buy a product or service, made just before a purchase.One who tends to make such purchases is referred to as an impulse purchaser or impulse buyer. Research findings suggest that emotions and feelings play a decisive role in purchasing, triggered by seeing the product or upon exposure to a well crafted promotional message.

Marketers and retailers tend to exploit these impulses which are tied to the basic want for instant gratification. For example, a shopper in a supermarket might not specifically be shopping for confectionary. However, candy, gum, mints and chocolate are prominently displayed at the checkout aisles to trigger impulse buyers to buy what they might not have otherwise considered.Alternatively, impulse buying can occur when a potential consumer spots something related to a product that stirs a particular passion in them, such as seeing a certain country's flag on the cover of a certain DVD. Sale items are displayed in much the same fashion.

Impulse buying can also extend to so-called "big ticket" items such as automobiles and home appliances. Automobiles in particular are as much an emotional purchase as a rational one. This in turn leads auto dealers all over the world to market their products in a rapid-fire, almost carnival-like manner designed to appeal to emotion over reason.

Impulse buying disrupts the normal decision making models in consumers' brains. The logical sequence of the consumers' actions is replaced with an irrational moment of self gratification. Impulse items appeal to the emotional side of consumers. Some items bought on impulse are not considered functional or necessary in the consumers' lives. Preventing impulse buying involves techniques such as setting budgets before shopping and taking time out before the purchase is made.

A study published in the June 2008 issue of the Journal of Consumer Research suggests that consumers are more susceptible to making impulsive purchases for one brand over another if they are distracted while shopping. In the study, Central Michigan University Psychology professor Bryan Gibson surveyed college students by measuring their preference for a variety of soft drinks, including Coke and Pepsi. Results of Gibson's study found that implicit attitudes, or those that people may not be conscious of and able to verbally express, predicted product choice only when participants were presented with a cognitive task, suggesting that implicit product attitudes may play a greater role in product choice when the consumer is distracted or making an impulse purchase.
How To Be a Good Driver
 
 
Driving is a wonderful experience because it allows you to be free to do the things you need to do. Driving can also be stressful at times but it doesn't have to be if you practice safe defensive driving. Anyone can learn to be a good driver. All it takes is knowledge, and experience behind the wheel. Take a drivers education course to help you gain experience behind the wheel. It is a small devotion of your time, that will pay off big over the years. Driving with another experienced driver in the wheel is also a good idea. Listening to the good advice of another good driver can be very helpful. Begin good driving by remembering to drive slowly and carefully at all times. Slow is best when driving and this helps you to avoid accidents and harming yourself or others behind the wheel which can be tragic.
  
 
  Avoid the radio, the cell phone, and anything that distracts you from paying attention on the road. When you need to make a call, pull the car over and park. If you need to listen to the radio, listen to it on a low volume so you can be alert and hear what is going on in the road. If you need to eat, pull over and park the car in a safe spot first. A car is a dangerous machine and should be used carefully. Good drivers know that you need to watch everything going on while you drive. That means paying attention to your actions, and the actions of the other drivers around you in their cars.
 
  Never drive while under the influence of alcohol, illicit drugs or prescription medications. All of these make you unable to drive well. In addition, if you are in an accident while under the influence of drugs or alcohol you may hurt someone, yourself and will probably do jail time. Your insurance costs will skyrocket, and there is a chance your license will be revoked. Its just not worth it.

  Being a good driver means keeping your car in good working condition. Check the fluids, tire pressure, mirrors, and make sure your views are clear out all the windows. Lastly, being a good driver means relaxing and enjoying the many nice aspects of driving, like the freedom of being able to go where you want to go. Just relax, drive safely and enjoy the drive.Read more: How to Be a Good Driver | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/how_4613709_be-good-driver.html#ixzz17fgrX57o


11/11/10

Tonight I’ve heard
A memory
An echo from the past
It’s now but just
A tiny glow
The flame no longer lasts
I’ve heard it once
Some years ago
The time I do not know
And now it’s echoed
Back at me
After I have grown so old
A memory
Of happy times
Comes out from inner space
I’m sure that all
‘Twas in this room
Could see it in my face
My heart was filled
With such a joy
But then so quickly gone
That though this room
Was overfilled
Its occupants where but one
For just a moment
I was there
Just I from wall to wall
And though these people
Are my friends
I know them not at all
My story is somewhat
Of a simple one
Of it I’m sure you know
I was born here
In this small town
And slowly I did grow
And now my mind
Begins to recall
Memories from throughout the years
And I fight myself
So very hard
To try to hold back the tears
I recall the days
Of summer youth
And of running in the sun
Of chasing girls
Pulling ponytails
And staying up ‘til One
The swimming hole
And climbing trees
Of playing Kick the Can
Of playing House
And tire swings
And my best friend named Stan
I recall a shanty
Old run down home
Sitting by a dusty road
It’s where I lived
A lifetime ago
When I was just a boy
The house we had built
Painted a rustic picture
Set deep in a pine wood glade
My mind recalls
The years spent there
And the memories that were made
But summer games
Can be played no more
There is no yelling and no cheers
No Fourth of July
No fireworks
Just an old man with eyes of tears
For that little boy
He is no more
He’s died and gone away
For time brings age
And a man is born
From the boy of yesterday
And when the man is born
The boy must die
Oh, in his heart it still remains
But he can not run
And jump and shout
And pitch rocks against window pains
And now a memory
Of a Christmas Day
Comes out from within my brain
‘Twas the only Christmas
I can recall
Upon which…it rained
I recall the look
On my Mothers face
And look of hope and yet despair
For looking under-
Neath the tree
You could not see much there
It was a hard year
For my Parents
A year of hard work and of tries
I recall my Mother
Looking for a sign
In each of her little eyes
Well, my Mother looked
As if she had died
And in spirit she had indeed
She wanted to make this
A happy day
For her children so in need
And she wanted to tell us
That it was not the gifts
But the love we shared that day
She wanted to hold us
In her arms and cry
But my Mother knew not the way
So she held it back
She painted on a smile
But her eyes just could not hide
The wonderful love
The terrible fear
And how hard she cried inside
She was so afraid
The gifts we had
Would not be loved by each of us
Afraid that we’d feel sad
That we’d feel as if
She had violated our trust
But the little presents
That we had
One another for to give
We loved them so
I’ll not forget
In as long as I might live
And looking back now
On that Christmas day
One thing is clear to me
The greatest gift
I’ve yet received
Was love, beneath the tree
Well, I go back home now
When I can
And I see the empty place
Then I hear the voice
Of everyone
Coming out from inner space
I stand there in
The empty rooms
And I stare at faded walls
I see the ghosts
Of years gone by
And I hear the hallowed calls
They call me back
To a time gone by
And generations that are gone
They ran a race
That most call “time”
In the end the clock had won
Then I see the faces
Of yesteryears
Of family members that are no more
They’ve left this Earth
And they’ve sailed away
To a far and distant shore
And it hurts me so
That they’re all gone
With them I can no longer be
Now I’m all alone
Here in the room
With strangers surrounding me
And now a memory
Of a woman’s laugh
So heartfelt and so gay
My mind tells me
I heard that laugh
Upon…my wedding day
After times of laugh
And times of love
Times of hard work and of tears
I wonder why
I most recall
Her laugh after all these years
We shared a life
Of good and bad
We lived it side by side
And we loved each other
All the more
As we began our downhill slide
To my sweet wife
Whom I have known
And have loved so many years
I lay my head back
And I rest
On a pillow filled with tears
It’s filled with tears
Which I have cried
On many a lonely night
And as I lie there
In the dark
I hold my pillow tight
Your sparkling eyes
Your flowing hair
I never saw it turn to snow
I lie awake each night
And I ask the Lord
Why did she have to go?
You left me
Many years ago
The choice was not your own
The Lord he called
Upon you, my Dear
But I’ve seen Grandchildren grown
In this cruel world
I now feel
So old and so alone
And perhaps that’s why
I have been placed
Here, in this nursing home
Well, some say birthdays
Are not for joy
Perhaps this is true I see
And that is why
They were all here today
For this was such a day for me
And I looked down and saw
Those tiny faces
All gathered around me
And I know what the future
Will hold for them
For it is my history
They’ll live and love
They’ll laugh and cry
They will live it day by day
And they’ll seldom feel it
As it slowly
Begins to slip away
Is this to be the woe
Of this old man’s life
To have such a perfect blend
Then to have his past
Catch up with him
To die lonely in…the end
Like years ago
Im standing here
Leaning on the rail of this old porch
And the memories burn
Within my mind
Like flames of a brilliant torch
I see the remains
Of yesterday
And things that used to be
I recall mistakes
That I once made
They’ve never stopped haunting me
The little toys
Which once brought joy
Sit inside looking cold
They remind me of
A time gone by
When I felt I’d never grow old
A broken chair
Stands on three legs
A puzzle, never done
Time forgot them both
As it has forgot
A little boy in the summer sun
Now, like the toys
He stands alone
And the sun has gone away
But the memories
Keep coming out
As if saved for a rainy day
And little children
Playing in the snow
With a hole in every glove
Have been lost in time
But a dim fire burns
As if for a long lost love
And the old pond
Where we slid on ice
Has dried up years ago
The cows no longer
Quench thirst there
And high the weeds have grown
Now I look across
The old dirt road
And across the distant land
For miles I see
The empty fields
Where wood thickets used to stand
But the trees are gone
They gave up life
They were fell and burned away
And I hold a hope
Within my heart
That they’ll return someday
This little valley
Once seemed so big
But now it seems so small
And the town which once
Seemed far away
Seems now not far at all
Oh, the memories
Of yesterday
Come cutting like a knife
They bring back all
The bits and the pieces
That were forgotten in my life
A pile of clothes
In my old room
Sits in a closet all alone
They have no one
To play in them
For the little boy is grown
The tiles are yellowed
The walls have faded
And far away I’ve roamed
But no matter how far
I may journey away
This place is always home
And in my old room
An old bed still stands
My parents left it there
I walk through the door
And I see the past
As I breathe familiar air
This old house
Holds a lot of memories
Some were bad and some were good
And when Mom & Dad said
“Son, remember us”
I never really understood
You see, they knew of time
And of how it passes
And they told me to beware
“For memories will
Betray you, Son
And all will be changed here”
With my little cousins
Out in the yard
For hours we would play
Now time has passed
And I know them not
For we’ve gone our separate ways
Now I stand out here
In the evening sun
And I feel the summer breeze
And it blows warm
Across my face
And helps set my soul at ease
And yet still I see
The rustic remains
Of what life use to be
In my soul I wish
That for just one night
Time would bring it all back to me
The little games
We played as kids
We thought it would always last
Deep in my heart
I ask the clock
Why did the years go so fast
Well, my Mom and Dad
They are changed too
Time has taken them apart
And as their marriage died
Deep inside of me
Died a little piece of my own heart
In the little town
Where I ran around
With my friends in search of fun
There is no one left
That I once knew
They’ve grown up and they’ve all gone
In the town where I once
Knew everyone
So very few have remained
And I can’t help but wonder
Wherever they are
If they’re feeling the same pain
I look around me now
I see the old place
And what the years have done to it
And as I think of all
The years yet to come
Inside, I must tremble a bit
For I can’t help but wonder
As time goes on
And as age changes its face
When I come back home
In another time
Will I still recognize the old place?
Will time change it so
That these old hills
And all that is around
Seems strange to me
Will I think of it
As just another little town
And all of us kids
When school was cancelled
Would ride sleds across the snow
As I look around
I ask myself
Where did all those children go?
Are they lost in time
Are they gone for good
Why must we all grow old
If I shed a tear
For the children gone
Would it be considered too bold
Time has taken us all
So very far away
From each other and from our home
And rarely we return
To see one another
And the hills we use to roam
And I wonder why
When I left this place
In my heart I felt so glad
Only to return
After years had passed
And in my heart to feel so sad
But as much as things
May change with time
As it has changed from the start
This home of mine
Will always have
A very special place in my heart
And when all is lost
When all have died
Or when they’ve all left me
I’ll look up to the Heavens
And say “Thank you, Lord
For giving me…My memories”

11/9/10


Don’t Segregate! Do Segregate!

All-girl schools have been gaining popularity in recent years because of the belief that girls can learn better when they aren’t competing with or intimidated by boys, who statistically get more attention than girls in the classroom. Do you think single-sex schools are a good idea? Why or why not? Use specific reasons and examples to support your positions.

            Everyone knows each person in the world is their own individual, meaning they have their own sense of style, way of thinking, and way of learning and understanding. With this being said it should be observed that they way a person is able to perceive information varies among the individual. The distractions and benefactors of how that specific person learns vary also. So, while same-sex schools might work for some they probably won’t work for a lot of people. When it comes to this matter, I believe the cons outweigh the pros.
            While I can see the benefits of same sex schools, like fewer distractions from the opposite sex and more gender sensitive and tolerant topics, the discrepancies are much more discernible in my opinion. Yes I do admit having the opposite sex in a classroom can be very diverting at times, especially if one or both parties like each other. But if you think about it, being exposed to coed classrooms builds social skills. The real world isn’t going to be single sex; you are going to have to deal with people of the opposite sex so learning how to cope from a young age is crucial. Another benefit that results from coed classes are you get opinions from both sides. When having a discussion on, let’s say healthy relationships, you are able to hear and interpret both the female and male point of view on the topic. This is important because it equips you for life; being armed with both view points on a topic heightens your eligibility for success.
            My next point would be that girls are pushed harder to do better when they are in a classroom with boys. The studies may say boys get more attention in the classroom, but in my opinion that just means girls are provoked to try that much harder to show the boys up. This may create a competitive feel to the class, but I think it is all for the better. The way I see it is that if I can outshine my male counterpart and get the praise from the teacher he so easily obtains, then that means I must be ten times better than him. As for boys intimidating girls in the class, I feel that is an overstatement. I for one have never been intimidated in a classroom, let alone by a boy! If anything I would be the one doing the intimidating.
            With all this information I am sure persuasion is sure to follow. I myself don’t feel that separation by gender in school is advantageous. There are too many short-term and long-term set backs that trace this strategy. So if you ask me I say to keep the schools integrated for the sake of a productive future.



 

Prompt 20

Toni Morrison
 Some writers capture you with their finesse, others with their sheer talent. For me Toni Morrison captured me with not only her vast intelect, portrayed by the way she speaks, but also by the way she writes, so eloquently and compelling. 
Born Chloe Anthony Wofford on February 18, 1931, in Lorain, Ohio. She was the second oldest of four children born to Ramah and George Wofford. Her father worked several jobs at once to support the family.
Living in an integrated neighborhood, Morrison did not become fully aware of racial divisions until she was in her teens. "When I was in first grade, nobody thought I was inferior. I was the only black in the class and the only child who could read," she later told a reporter from The New York Times. Dedicated to her studies, Morrison took Latin in school, and read many great works of European literature. She graduated from Lorain High School with honors in 1949.
At Howard University, Morrison continued to pursue her interest in literature. She majored in English, and chose the classics for her minor. After graduating from Howard in 1953, Morrison continued her education at Cornell University. She wrote her thesis on the works of Virginia Woolf and William Faulkner, and completed her master's degree in 1955. She then moved to Texas to teach English at Texas Southern University.
In 1957, Morrison returned to Howard University to teach English. There she met Harold Morrison, an architect originally from Jamaica. The couple got married in 1958 and welcomed their first child, son Harold, in 1961. After the birth of her son, Morrison joined a writers group that met on campus. She began working on her first novel with the group, which started out as a short story.
Morrison decided to leave Howard in 1963. After spending the summer traveling with her family in Europe, she returned to the United States with her son. Her husband, however, had decided to move back to Jamaica. At the time, Morrison was pregnant with their second child. She moved back home to live with her family in Ohio before the birth of son Slade in 1964. The following year, she moved with her sons to Syracuse, New York, where she worked for a textbook publisher as a senior editor. Morrison later went to work for Random House, where she edited works for such authors as Toni Cade Bambara and Gayl Jones.
Her first novel, The Bluest Eye (which I am now reading), was published in 1970. It told the story of a young African-American girl who believes her incredibly difficult life would be better if only she had blue eyes. The book received warm reviews, but it didn't sell well. Morrison continued to explore the African-American experience in its many forms and time periods in her work. Her next novel, Sula (1973), explores good and evil through the friendship of two women who grew up together. The work was nominated for the American Book Award.
Song of Solomon (1977) became the first work by an African-American author to be a featured selection in the book-of-the-month club since Native Son by Richard Wright. It follows the journey of Milkman Dead as he searches the South for his roots. Morrison received a number of accolades for this work. A rising literary star, Morrison was appointed to the National Council on the Arts in 1980. The following year, Tar Baby was published. The novel drew some inspiration from folktales, and it received a decidedly mixed reaction from critics. Her next work, however, proved to be one of her greatest masterpieces. Beloved (1987) explores love and the supernatural. The main character, a former slave, is haunted by her decision to kill her children rather than see them become slaves. Three of her children survived, but her infant daughter died at her hand. For this spellbinding work, Morrison won several literary awards, including the 1988 Pulitzer Prize for fiction. The book was turned into a movie in 1998, and starred Oprah Winfrey.
Morrison became a professor at Princeton University in 1989, and continued to produce great works. In recognition of her contributions to her field, she received the 1993 Nobel Prize in Literature, making her the first African-American to be selected for the award. The next year, her novel Jazz was published, a story which explored marital love and betrayal.
At Princeton, Morrison established a special workshop for writers and performers known as the Princeton Atelier in 1994. The program was designed to help students create original works in a variety of artistic fields. Outside of her academic work, Morrison continued to write new works of fiction. Her next novel, Paradise (1998), which focused on a fictional African-American town called Ruby, earned mixed reviews.
In 1999, Morrison branched out to children's literature. She worked with her son Slade on The Big Box, The Book of Mean People (2002) and The Ant or the Grasshopper? (2003). She has also explored other genres, writing the play Dreaming Emmett in the mid-1980s and the lyrics for "Four Songs" with composer Andre Previn in 1994 and "Sweet Talk" with composer Richard Danielpour in 1997.
Her next novel, Love (2003), divides its narrative between the past and present. Bill Cosey, a wealthy entrepreneur and owner of the Cosey Hotel and Resort, is the center figure in the work. The flashbacks explore his life, while his death casts a long shadow on the present part of the story. A critic for Publisher's Weekly praised the work, stating that "Morrison has crafted a gorgeous, stately novel whose mysteries are gradually unearthed."
In 2006, Morrison announced she was retiring from her post at Princeton. That year, The New York Times Book Review named Beloved the best novel of the past 25 years. She has continued to explore new art forms, writing the libretto for Margaret Garner, an American opera that explores the tragedy of slavery through the true life story of one woman's experiences. The opera debuted at the New York City Opera in 2007.
Morrison traveled back to the early days of slavery in the United States for her next novel, A Mercy. Once again, a woman who is both a slave and a mother must make a terrible choice regarding her child. As a critic from the Washington Post described it, the novel is "a fusion of mystery, history and longing."
champion for the arts, Morrison spoke out about censorship in October 2009 after one of her books was banned at a Michigan high school. She served as editor for Burn This Book, a collection of essays on censorship and the power of the written word, which was published that same year. She told a crowd gathered for the launch of the Free Speech Leadership Council about the importance of fighting censorship. "The thought that leads me to contemplate with dread the erasure of other voices, of unwritten novels, poems whispered or swallowed for fear of being overheard by the wrong people, outlawed languages flourishing underground, essayists' questions challenging authority never being posed, unstaged plays, canceled films&mdashthat thought is a nightmare. As though a whole universe is being described in invisible ink," Morrison said.In addition to her many novels, Morrison has written several works of non-fiction. One of her most recent works is a collection of her non-fiction writings entitled What Moves at the Margin, published in 2008. Whether through fiction or non-fiction, however, Morrison will continue to be a vital force in the American literary landscape.